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"But being right, even morally right, isn't everything. It is also important to be competent, to be consistent, and to be knowledgeable. It's important for your soldiers and diplomats to speak the language of the people you want to influence. It's important to understand the ethnic and tribal divisions of the place you hope to assist."
-Anne Applebaum

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Thursday, July 23, 2026

Kruse's Keys: Read "When Rain Clouds Gather" to Journey with a Refugee in Botswana

Reading Bessie Head’s When Rain Clouds Gather after Ouologuem’s angry Bound to Violence was a welcome emotion/spiritual soul palate cleanser. This is not to say that Rain Clouds shies away from the evils of apartheid in South Africa or corrupt tribal power in Botswana, but Head’s narrative simply has more likable characters and a more hopeful and optimistic arc. My selection of a South African writer for my Botswana “Beyond Achebe” selection did not come without careful thought and reflection. In Head’s case, she lived in Botswana most of her adult life (15 years of it as a refugee) and eventually became a citizen in 1979 (7 years before her death) and as an outsider brought a keen eye and most importantly a curiosity to her writing about the country. That curiosity yielded a novel rife with cultural insights and a tenderness for its subject, particularly the women in the fictional town of Golema Mmidi.

Rain Clouds follows the story of a South African refugee named Makhaya who sneaks across the border seeking an escape from the psychic generational chains of his existence in apartheid society. In his conversations he delves into just how these affect his thoughts, character and approach to life.

"It was hard to be charitable towards a civilization like this. It was hard to sit back and contemplate the real wonder of the white man's world which was this civilization. As Makhaya walked back to the farm in the pitch-dark night he was even sorry that he had once more aroused his own deep and bitter hatred. For he hated the white man in a strange way. It was not anything subtle or sly or mean, but a powerful accumulation of years and years and centuries and centuries of silence."
"Once he had pulled away from these taboos, he found the definition of a black man unacceptable to him. There were things like Baas and Master he would never call a white man, not even if they shot him dead. But all black men did it."

The nature of Makhaya’s journey mirrors, of course, that of the author’s own trauma as the daughter of an “illegal” union between a black man and white woman. In Makhaya’s case he is fortunate to stumble upon the town of Golema Mmidi and its amiable leader Dinorego who welcomes him with a hopeful invitation:

"Why not come and stay with me for a while, son? But I am almost penniless, Makhaya said. A poor person like me can still be hospitable, the old man said. Besides, a lot is happening in my village and a well-educated man like you can bring a little light."

This invitation sets Makhaya’s story in motion as one of simmering anger toward the stifling tribal politics of the greedy and corrupt “chiefs” who give little thought to the public good or the common people.

"Chief Sekoto could picture so clearly the day Gilbert had walked into his office and Chief Sekoto had thought him mad with all his talk about the poor. The poor were just the poor, and the commoner was just the commoner, and they were not very interesting people to Chief Sekoto...How was Chief Sekoto to know that there was a quiet and desperate revolution going on throughout the whole wide world?"

This revolution comes knocking on Chief Sekoto’s door and its violence only (temporarily?) halted by his own brother Matenge’s cowardice near the story’s climax. In this story, however, Head is far more concerned about those “commoners” and in telling the story of how they deal with heart-breaking loss and adversity, yet persevere and continue to hope, and to gather together to work towards a better future. Dinorego’s spirited daughter Maria captures this sentiment when she shares her people’s hopeful and cleansing view.

"That is why all good things and all good people are called rain. Sometimes we see the rain clouds gather even though not a cloud appears in the sky. It is all in our heart."

Thematic Highlights & Annotations

Theme 1: Structural Racism, Institutional Hegemony, and Post-Colonial Disillusionment

Page vii
Transcription: "Bessie Head, one of Africa's best-known women writers, was born in South Africa in 1937, the result of an 'illicit' union between a black man and a white woman. Her life was a traumatic one, and she drew heavily upon her own personal experiences for her novels."

Page 41
Transcription: "The opposition political parties had long been aligned to the Pan-African movement. They also called themselves the vanguard of African nationalism in southern Africa. To many, Pan-Africanism is an almost sacred dream, but like all dreams it also has its nightmare side, and the little men like Joas Tsepe and their strange doings are the nightmare. If they have any power at all it is the power to plunge the African continent into an era of chaos and bloody murder."

Page 42 (Section 1)
Transcription: "Since he had come out of jail after the self-government elections, Joas lived as the permanent guest of Matenge. He had a co-operative to organize which would help Matenge to re-establish himself as the cattle-speculator of Golema Mmidi, and he had to educate the African masses in African socialism. It was on a Friday afternoon that Joas passed by the farm and noticed the presence of a stranger. Devoured by curiosity, he swung into the farm gates on the plea that he needed water for a long journey. He took one close look at Makhaya and almost choked with excitement. The newspaper with Makhaya's picture on the front page was in his car, and his car could not seem to drive fast enough back to Matenge."
Context: Exposes the transactional alignment between traditional feudal rulers and modern political opportunists, where socialist rhetoric is co-opted to secure a monopoly over the rural cattle market.

Page 42 (Section 2)
Transcription: "Joas Tsepe, although born in Botswana, worked for several years in South Africa, where he accumulated numerous grievances. A mysterious source supplied him with funds, enabling him to remain unemployed and devote himself full-time to the liberation struggle. One wonders if his secret financier intended to re-establish the rule of the illiterate in Africa, or if Joas was merely a tool. Joas was a parrot and a belly-crawler; it was this exact sycophancy that won him Matenge's friendship."

Page 119
Transcription: "Once he had pulled away from these taboos, he found the definition of a black man unacceptable to him. There were things like Baas and Master he would never call a white man, not even if they shot him dead. But all black men did it. He had seen it in the slums of all the cities of South Africa where black men had to live and how a man walked out of his home to buy a packet of cigarettes and never returned and how his seemingly senseless murder gave a brief feeling of manhood to a man who had none. Thousands of men died this way to boost up the manhood of a manless man."
Context: Makhaya diagnoses the psychological impact of institutionalized racism, tracing urban township violence back to the daily, systematic emasculation engineered by apartheid.

Page 128
Transcription: "It was hard to be charitable towards a civilization like this. It was hard to sit back and contemplate the real wonder of the white man's world which was this civilization. As Makhaya walked back to the farm in the pitch-dark night he was even sorry that he had once more aroused his own deep and bitter hatred. For he hated the white man in a strange way. It was not anything subtle or sly or mean, but a powerful accumulation of years and years and centuries and centuries of silence."
Context: An internal analysis of historical rage, evaluating how colonial subjugation generates a heavy generational weight of silence within the oppressed population.

Page 129
Transcription: "There had been love and peace for some time on the continent of Africa because for all this time black men had been captivated by the doctrines of Christianity. It took them centuries to realize its contradictions... It seemed to Makhaya far preferable for Africa if it did without Christianity and Christian double-talk, fat priests, golden images... It meant that a white man could forever go on slaughtering black men simply because Jesus Christ would save him from his sins. Africa could do without a religion like that."

Page 180
Transcription: "There were two such destinies which faced Africa—that of the followers of Solomon and that of a man with no shoes. But the man with no shoes had been bypassed, scorned, and ridiculed while the Solomons stalked the land in their golden Chevrolets. Who would eat then if all the gold and pomegranates went into the house of Solomon? Who would bathe if all the water went into his forty bathrooms? Who would have time to plough if everyone had to join the parade to watch Solomon pass by in his Chevrolet of molten gold, his top hat and silk shirt, glittering in the African sun?"

Theme 2: Despotism, Tribal Hegemony, and Egalitarian Resistance

Page 9 (Section 1)
Transcription: "He had sisters at home, one almost the same age as the child and some a few years older. But he was the eldest in the family, and according to custom he had to be addressed as 'Buti', which means 'Elder Brother', and treated with exaggerated respect. As soon as his father died he made many changes in the home, foremost of which was that his sisters should address him by his first name and associate with him as equals and friends."

Page 39 (Section 1)
Transcription: "It was he who displayed the arrogance and pride that were part and parcel of the bearing of a great chief, and yet life had placed an amiable, pleasant nitwit of a brother in the supreme position, who was not above shaking hands with the commoners and talking to them as equals. It was he, Matenge, who really commanded the largest following of diehard traditionalists, the ones who from generation to generation saw to it that things remained as they were and whose company and advice were anathema to his carefree, pleasure-loving elder brother, the paramount chief."
Context: Introduces the central character dynamic between the despotic Matenge and the flexible, populist Paramount Chief Sekoto, reflecting contrasting styles of tribal governance.

Page 39 (Section 2)
Transcription: "The village had dealt one shattering blow after another to his self-esteem. It was he who displayed the arrogance and pride that were part and parcel of the bearing of a great chief, and yet life had placed an amiable, pleasant nitwit of a brother in the supreme position, who was not above shaking hands with the commoners and talking to them as equals. It was he, Matenge, who really commanded the largest following of diehard traditionalists... It was he, Matenge, who understood tribalism, that it was essentially the rule of the illiterate man who, when he was in the majority, feared and despised anything that was not a part of the abysmal darkness in which he lived."
Context: Dissects how despots weaponize conservative cultural taboos to construct a defensive political base among vulnerable, uneducated populations.

Page 52
Transcription: "‘I don't know,’ George said. ‘People are on tenterhooks about Tsepe. Tsepe is under the illusion that he can establish a secret military camp in the bush. He has no idea that his every movement is known... If you like, we can delay matters until he brings your brother into the deal and we rope him in as well.' Chief Sekoto nodded his head vigorously. ‘I've no objection to my brother going to jail, George,’ he said. ‘Only it must be for a long time. But what about the refugee? My brother wants him removed.’ ‘It's not what he wants,’ George said, calmly. ‘But what I want. What I want is for Gilbert to carry on with his work because everyone else is bullshitting around.’ Chief Sekoto laughed heartily... George looked affectionately at the old man, marvelling at his ability to take everything in life so lightly."
Context: Exposes the bureaucratic mechanics of the state, where colonial law enforcement and traditional chiefs cooperate to maintain security while sheltering modern agricultural reformers.

Page 57
Transcription: "Chief Matenge really believed he was 'royalty.' So deeply ingrained was this belief in him that he had acquired a number of personal possessions to bolster the image. One was a high-backed kingly chair and the other was a deep purple, tasselled and expensive dressing gown... The tide of African nationalism had swept down the continent and then faltered at the northern borders of Botswana. During the pre-election campaign, the politicians had had to chase after the people, who kept on moving back and forth to their cattle posts and lands, seemingly unaware that destiny was about to catch up with them."
Context: Satirizes the performative nature of local autocrats while highlighting the disconnect between European-style political campaigns and the migration patterns of rural populations.

Page 58
Transcription: "The politicians could not perceive that conference table terms meant little to a people who could not read a newspaper and who were completely out of touch with the latest trends... The other political party—the sons and relatives of chiefs—was more cunning. It kept its distance. It played catchy little folk songs everyone knew. It talked about cattle and crops and all the familiar Botswana problems... The sons of chiefs, who had had all the advantages of education, pounced on the spelling errors of the sons of slaves, who had little or no education."
Context: Evaluates the structural inequalities embedded in mid-century elections, where elite factions leverage educational privilege to consolidate control over marginalized voters.

Page 140
Transcription: "This desire for progress had usually taken the form of wanting to build a small brick house with a tin roof. But brick houses were for chiefs alone, and how could an ordinary commoner want to bring himself up to the level of a chief? Or again, he might desire to set up a borehole for watering his cattle. The chief could say yes or no. If in some demented mood he said yes and then the commoner prospered, it would not be for long... the chief acquired a new watering place for his cattle."
Context: Outlines the economic stagnation caused by feudal land tenure systems, where arbitrary judicial power is exercised by chiefs to seize wealth and discourage individual initiative.

Page 141
Transcription: "Matenge's crises were always silently prepared. No one ever knew what was going on in that lonely mountain-top which was his soul. The village was just presented with his thunderstorms, and their fierceness and savage intensity were the outcome of months of brooding. But he was ailing these days and it took him longer than usual to find his new victim... Yet, at this time, a far greater crisis than any Matenge could ever produce was to strike down on the village of Golema Mmidi and the country as a whole. It all began so quietly... September came around and no rain clouds gathered in the sky."
Context: Shifts the narrative focus from localized, political tyranny to the far more devastating and indiscriminate authority of ecological failure.

Page 175
Transcription: "This time there was a heavy feeling in his heart. It wasn't easy to dismiss the intense, dramatic face of his brother. As though it was a question mark before life. As though his brother had suffered because he had wanted more things than a man should desire for one life and then life itself had frustrated all these desires. As though his brother had been the helpless victim of terrible, private hungers... Chief Sekoto could picture so clearly the day Gilbert had walked into his office and Chief Sekoto had thought him mad with all his talk about the poor. The poor were just the poor, and the commoner was just the commoner, and they were not very interesting people to Chief Sekoto... How was Chief Sekoto to know that there was a quiet and desperate revolution going on throughout the whole wide world?"
Context: Following Matenge’s suicide, Sekoto experiences an internal awakening, confronting the limits of his own class-based insulation and the reality of a global social transition.

Page 178
Transcription: "Until late that night they kept on grouping and regrouping in each other's yards, drinking bowls of sour-milk porridge, discussing the weather and how hot it had been that day. But not once did they mention the name of Matenge, though he was in all their thoughts, hovering like a great, unseen shadow over the whole village... Gilbert had been roughed up inside more than all of them. He had had to do a complete somersault of thought and feeling after his arrival in Golema Mmidi. No one had told him there was such a thing as an African oppressor, nor had he expected to find a Matenge exploiting his own people through the cattle-speculating business."
Context: Traces the collective trauma of tyranny, highlighting the village's tactical use of silence alongside the collapse of the foreign idealist's political naiveté regarding internal exploitation.

Theme 3: Existential Alienation, Isolation, and Emotional Purging

Page 3
Transcription: "Quite drunk by now the young man said rather crazily, 'Yes, we Zulus are like that. Since the days of Shaka we've assumed that the whole world belongs to us; that's why we trouble to learn any man's language. But look here, old man, I'm no tribalist. My parents are—that's why they saddled me with this foolish name... Makhaya,' he said. 'That tribal name is the wrong one for me. It is for one who stays home, yet they gave it to me and I have not known a day's peace and contentment in my life.'"

Page 24
Transcription: "‘God's country,’ Makhaya echoed, surprised. ‘Didn't you know?’ the old man said with a twinkle in his eye. ‘God is everywhere about here, and it's no secret. People can't steal a thing from you, not even a sixpence. People can't fight, not even to kill an enemy.’ Makhaya kept quiet, absorbing this strange philosophy. Everything about the old man pleased him, and noting this the old man said slyly, ‘Why not come and stay with me for a while, son?’ ‘But I am almost penniless,’ Makhaya said. ‘A poor person like me can still be hospitable,’ the old man said. ‘Besides, a lot is happening in my village and a well-educated man like you can bring a little light.’"
Context: Makhaya's initial contact with Dinorego's philosophy presents local, small-scale community as an alternative to urban trauma and state surveillance.

Page 66
Transcription: "Mma-Millipede inquired about small details of Makhaya's life, chattering in a motherly way that felt like mountains of affection to the lonely man. Initially, her extreme generosity repelled him; to love people meant allowing them to completely invade your life, and he was unaccustomed to such invasions. Yet the isolation he so treasured had often been painful, for he still felt the universal human need to share life's best and worst elements with another."
Context: Dissects Makhaya's protective psychological barriers, where intimacy is initially perceived as a threat to personal autonomy, despite his underlying isolation.

Page 131
Transcription: "What else could a man do but seek a manageable life? What else could Makhaya do but wait here until his hatred subsided? As an individual, he sought a vibrant existence, terrified of the living death into which a man could be born. For his immediate peace, he determined to purge his hatred and concentrate fully on the daily details of life in Golema Mmidi—a life that was proving both rich and manageable."
Context: Marks a shift in Makhaya's internal code, turning away from generalized political rage toward localized, daily work as a path to emotional stability.

Page 158
Transcription: "‘...time? I'll remain behind.’ These few simple words put new life into Gilbert. He nodded briefly and turned the car round, and he and Paulina drove back in the direction of Golema Mmidi. Makhaya was left alone with the vultures. Surrounded by tragedy and seated in the shade of a ramshackle mud hut in the Botswana bush, he began to see himself. In retrospect he seemed a small-minded man. All his life he had wanted some kind of Utopia, and he had rejected in his mind and heart a world full of ailment and faults. He had run and run away from it all, but now the time had come when he could run and hide no longer and would have to turn round and face all that he had run away from. Loving one woman had brought him to this realization: that it was only people who could bring the real rewards of living, that it was only people who give love and happiness. As though to confirm his new trend of thought, he stirred a foot and found it brushed against a bundle of something, carefully tied up. He opened the bundle and in it was a collection of wood carvings, done by the small boy to occupy himself during the lonely hours of cattle herding."
Context: Finding the deceased boy’s wood carvings forces Makhaya to abandon his idealization of total detachment, recognizing that isolation can serve as an act of emotional avoidance.

Page 160
Transcription: "He could not go on thinking of the heap of bones that lay inside the hut, because death was like trying to clutch the air, and you had to let it be and slowly let it pass aside, without fuss and indignity. Instead, you had to concentrate the mind on all that was still alive and treat it as the most precious treasure you had ever been given. Besides, he had felt all the pain he was capable of feeling the night before, and it had directed his actions along this new path. So, he sat there thinking about his new life with Paulina. Even ordinary things like cups, brooms, pots, and houses were a pleasure to him to contemplate, once he had become aware of their existence, as though all these things would anchor him firmly to the earth. They also strengthened his resolve to be a future millionaire, for many a future millionaire must have had a dead child in his life who had died from lack of proper food, and he must have had a one-room hut in which he could hardly move and breathe... If a man didn't have dreams like this, in Africa, he would end up food for the vultures too."
Context: Following a tragic loss, Makhaya channels his grief into a commitment to material and domestic stability as a defense against regional poverty.

Page 181 (Section 1)
Transcription: "But the God with no shoes, with his queer, inverted reasoning, had brought Makhaya, a real and potential murderer, face to face with the body of Matenge just hanging there and hanging there. 'Don't you see?' he had said softly. 'Murder is small-minded business.'... Did you really trust a God like that? He made you take a long and perilous journey along a road where everyone threw things at you. Then he said you were small-minded if you wanted to throw things back. Why didn't he do something about the throwers then? Because one Matenge died and another replaced him, and no matter which way you turned there was always a Matenge there to throw something at you."
Context: Matenge’s suicide subverts Makhaya’s plan to commit retributive violence, highlighting the cyclical and ultimately limiting nature of personal vengeance.

Page 181 (Section 2)
Transcription: "He changed about from day to day contradicting and confusing himself by all he had to learn, never certain of anything the way the fortune-tellers were. He had upset Makhaya this day by stacking the cards one way and then toppling them another. He had packed all these cards up in a precarious pyramid and stood by while Matenge picked off the topmost card. It would have been different had Matenge really victimized Paulina for whatever he wanted to victimize her for. Maybe her association with Makhaya. But then a man like Makhaya would not have stood by with tied hands. He would have had blood on his hands by now and been in some cell, with George Appleby-Smith lecturing him on how he had let him down."
Context: Analyzes Makhaya’s internal adjustment as his moral reality is upended by the sudden erasure of his oppressor, avoiding a simple cycle of violent consequence.

Theme 4: Gender Exploitation and Women as Engines of Economic Reform

Page 9 (Section 2)
Transcription: "‘My grandmother... long as you pay me,’ she said. But she just sat there and would not move. He really could not stand it. He raised himself and struck a match and took out a ten-shilling note and handed it to her. ‘Here's the money,’ he said fiercely. ‘Now go away.’ Her eyes were wide and uncomprehending in the brief flare of the match, but she grasped the note and fled. From the hut next door he heard the brief plaintive explanation of the child and the loud surprised chatter of the old woman. ‘You mean he gave you the money for nothing?’ she said, beside herself with excitement. ‘This is a miracle! I have not yet known a man who did not regard a woman as a gift from God! He must be mad!... Let us lock the door to protect ourselves from the madman!’ What a loathsome woman, he thought, and yet how naïve she was in her evil. He had known many such evils in his lifetime. He thought they were created by poverty and oppression, and he had spent the last two years in jail in the belief that, in some way, a protest would help to set the world right. It was the mentality of the old hag that ruined a whole continent—some sort of clinging, ancestral, tribal belief that a man was nothing more than a grovelling sex organ, that there was no such thing as privacy of soul and body, and that no ordinary man would hesitate to jump on a mere child."
Context: Makhaya's refusal to participate in the exploitation of a young girl underscores how deeply ingrained social abuses perpetuate dependency across the continent.

Page 37 (Section 1)
Transcription: "How could a start be made? He handed it to Makhaya to study. Could the women of the village be given some instruction? And why not? Women were on the land 365 days of the year while the men shuttled to and fro with the cattle. Perhaps all change in the long run would depend on the women of the country and perhaps they too could provide a number of solutions to problems he had not yet thought of."
Context: Gilbert's structural insight shifts the target of technical education toward women, identifying them as the stable, permanent agricultural anchors of rural society.

Page 88
Transcription: "The women had been lying to themselves for so long in their sexual frustration that they would not admit the real reason why Paulina dominated them all was because she was the kind of woman who could not lie to men. They followed the leadership of Paulina because she was so daring and different. It would have upset their world to have Paulina find a man she could get along with... Paulina turned and stirred one of the pots with a big wooden stick. It wasn't the women and their intrigues she feared but the untrustworthiness of men with no strength or moral values."
Context: Evaluates the social friction within the village, where Paulina Sebeso's personal independence challenges a social order accustomed to passive submission.

Page 99
Transcription: "Ten other women walked briskly into the yard. Twenty more wished to join the tobacco-growing project but required their husbands' permission first. No men ever worked harder than Batswana women, upon whom rested the entire burden of providing food for large families. Their sticks thrashed the corn at harvest, and their winnowing baskets separated the chaff."
Context: Documents the intense economic responsibility borne by rural women, who provide food security despite restrictive legal and patriarchal frameworks.

Theme 5: Ecological Precarity, Agrarian Reform, and Cosmological Resilience

Page 37 (Section 2)
Transcription: "Somewhere along the line they had become mixed up with tribal traditions. They had become fixed. They were: sorghum, maize, watermelon, and sweet reed. There was even a feeling of safety about them. Never mind if the hot sun of the drought years burned whole fields of sorghum and maize. Never mind if the rain was no longer what it used to be in the good old days when the rivers ran the whole year round and the dams were always full. You just could not see beyond tradition and its safety to the amazing truth you were starving—and that tough little plants existed that were easy to grow and well able to stand up to rigorous conditions and could provide you with food."
Context: Analyzes the psychological burden of agricultural tradition, where a focus on familiar crops prevents necessary adaptation to changing environmental conditions.

Page 130
Transcription: "He viewed Gilbert's culture as one that systematically cataloged every single detail on earth with curiosity, revealing deep gaps in his own culture and proving how impossible it would be for Africans to stand alone. His own culture lacked, almost entirely, this love and care for the earth and had all its interest directed towards people. He had grown up in an atmosphere where the most important thing in the world was the stranger whose shadow darkened the doorstep. People were the central part of the universe of Africa, and the world stood still because of this. Over time, Makhaya began to combine the two—the good in Gilbert with the good in his own society."
Context: Makhaya synthesizes Western empirical methods with African humanism, arguing that regional development requires balancing scientific observation with communal values.

Page 154
Transcription: "The small brown birds had deserted the bush, and the bush itself no longer supplied the coverage and protection for the secret activities of the scarlet and golden birds. Here and there, faint patches of green clung to the topmost branches of tall thorn trees, but not a green thing survived near the sun-baked earth. In this desolation the vultures reigned supreme. They gathered on the ground in huge flocks of sixty to a hundred and held important discussions in hoarse, rough voices and flapped their long, sloppy brown feathers in imperious indignation. They could afford to be imperious, indignant and important, for they were to be a burial society for over six hundred thousand cattle."
Context: Stark ecological imagery details the collapse of the local pastoral economy under the strain of an unyielding climate crisis.

Page 157
Transcription: "He pushed open the door and looked in. There was only a heap of clean, white bones lying on the floor. They lay in a curled, cramped position with the bones of the hands curved inward... 'The boy is dead,' he said sharply. 'Why do you want to go in?' 'I must see the body,' she said... 'because it is our custom.' 'You see,' he said, in a deliberately harsh voice. 'All these rotten customs are killing us. Can't you see I'm here to bear all your burdens?'"
Context: Confronted with the human cost of a severe drought, Makhaya rejects fatalistic cultural practices in favor of direct, immediate mutual support.

Page 164
Transcription: "‘No,’ she said curiously. ‘Even the trees were dying from the roots upward,’ he said. ‘Does everything die like this?’ ‘No,’ she said. ‘You may see no rivers on the ground but we keep the rivers inside us. That is why all good things and all good people are called rain. Sometimes we see the rain clouds gather even though not a cloud appears in the sky. It is all in our heart.’ He nodded his head, fully grasping this in its deepest meaning. There was always something on this earth man was forced to love and worship by reason of its absence. People in cloudy, misty climates worshipped the sun, and people in semi-desert countries worshipped the rain."
Context: Explores Batswana rain cosmology, where "rain" serves as a metaphor for resilience and the preservation of life through periods of severe environmental hardship.


Comparative Literary Recommendation

Based on your documented library trends in Books I've Read - Sheet1_9—specifically your 5-star evaluation of Nadine Gordimer’s stark landscape tracking and Abdulrazak Gurnah’s post-colonial character structures—I recommend Petals of Blood by Ngũgĩ wa Thiong'o.

Set in rural Kenya during the transition to modernization, the novel traces how an isolated village attempts to self-organize amidst sudden economic exploitation, ecological pressures, and the emergence of corrupt domestic political elites. Ngũgĩ’s unyielding realism, structural depth, and thematic focus on agrarian cooperation directly match the literary standards established in your catalog.


Additional Chronological Reading Notes

Page vii
Transcription: "Bessie Head, one of Africa's best-known women writers, was born in South Africa in 1937, the result of an 'illicit' union between a black man and a white woman. Her life was a traumatic one, and she drew heavily upon her own personal experiences for her novels."

Page 3
Transcription: "Quite drunk by now the young man said rather crazily, 'Yes, we Zulus are like that. Since the days of Shaka we've assumed that the whole world belongs to us; that's why we trouble to learn any man's language. But look here, old man, I'm no tribalist. My parents are—that's why they saddled me with this foolish name... Makhaya,' he said. 'That tribal name is the wrong one for me. It is for one who stays home, yet they gave it to me and I have not known a day's peace and contentment in my life.'"
Context: Early dialogue establishing Makhaya's alienation from traditional tribal identities and his search for individual autonomy while fleeing South Africa.

Page 9 (Section 1)
Transcription: "He had sisters at home, one almost the same age as the child and some a few years older. But he was the eldest in the family, and according to custom he had to be addressed as 'Buti', which means 'Elder Brother', and treated with exaggerated respect. As soon as his father died he made many changes in the home, foremost of which was that his sisters should address him by his first name and associate with him as equals and friends."
Context: Makhaya reflects on the patriarchal and tribal customs he deliberately abandoned upon his father's death, establishing domestic equality over blind custom.

Page 9 (Section 2)
Transcription: "‘My grandmother... long as you pay me,’ she said. But she just sat there and would not move. He really could not stand it. He raised himself and struck a match and took out a ten-shilling note and handed it to her. ‘Here's the money,’ he said fiercely. ‘Now go away.’ Her eyes were wide and uncomprehending in the brief flare of the match, but she grasped the note and fled. From the hut next door he heard the brief plaintive explanation of the child and the loud surprised chatter of the old woman. ‘You mean he gave you the money for nothing?’ she said, beside herself with excitement. ‘This is a miracle! I have not yet known a man who did not regard a woman as a gift from God! He must be mad!... Let us lock the door to protect ourselves from the madman!’ What a loathsome woman, he thought, and yet how naïve she was in her evil. He had known many such evils in his lifetime. He thought they were created by poverty and oppression, and he had spent the last two years in jail in the belief that, in some way, a protest would help to set the world right. It was the mentality of the old hag that ruined a whole continent—some sort of clinging, ancestral, tribal belief that a man was nothing more than a grovelling sex organ, that there was no such thing as privacy of soul and body, and that no ordinary man would hesitate to jump on a mere child."
Context: While staying at a temporary border hut, Makhaya encounters a grandmother attempting to exploit a young girl. His refusal to participate reflects his refusal to replicate patterns of abuse, framing internal moral discipline as essential to continental liberation.

Page 24
Transcription: "‘God's country,’ Makhaya echoed, surprised. ‘Didn't you know?’ the old man said with a twinkle in his eye. ‘God is everywhere about here, and it's no secret. People can't steal a thing from you, not even a sixpence. People can't fight, not even to kill an enemy.’ Makhaya kept quiet, absorbing this strange philosophy. Everything about the old man pleased him, and noting this the old man said slyly, ‘Why not come and stay with me for a while, son?’ ‘But I am almost penniless,’ Makhaya said. ‘A poor person like me can still be hospitable,’ the old man said. ‘Besides, a lot is happening in my village and a well-educated man like you can bring a little light.’"
Context: Makhaya's encounter with Dinorego introduces the village philosophy of decentralized cooperation as an antidote to political alienation and urban trauma.

Page 37 (Section 1)
Transcription: "How could a start be made? How could people and knowledge be brought together? Could the women of the village be given some instruction? And why not? Women were on the land 365 days of the year while the men shuttled to and fro with the cattle. Perhaps all change in the long run would depend on the women of the country and perhaps they too could provide a number of solutions to problems he had not yet thought of."
Context: Gilbert reflects on agricultural reform in Golema Mmidi, recognizing that meaningful modernization and survival depend entirely on empowering the female population rather than adhering to rigid gender roles.

Page 37 (Section 2)
Transcription: "Somewhere along the line they had become mixed up with tribal traditions. They had become fixed. They were: sorghum, maize, watermelon, and sweet reed. There was even a feeling of safety about them. Never mind if the hot sun of the drought years burned whole fields of sorghum and maize. Never mind if the rain was no longer what it used to be in the good old days when the rivers ran the whole year round and the dams were always full. You just could not see beyond tradition and its safety to the amazing truth you were starving—and that tough little plants existed that were easy to grow and well able to stand up to rigorous conditions and could provide you with food."
Context: This section highlights the psychological barrier of ancestral custom in subsistence farming, critiquing how adherence to traditional crops overrides logical adaptations necessary to survive severe ecological shifts.

Page 39 (Section 1)
Transcription: "It was he who displayed the arrogance and pride that were part and parcel of the bearing of a great chief, and yet life had placed an amiable, pleasant nitwit of a brother in the supreme position, who was not above shaking hands with the commoners and talking to them as equals. It was he, Matenge, who really commanded the largest following of diehard traditionalists, the ones who from generation to generation saw to it that things remained as they were and whose company and advice were anathema to his carefree, pleasure-loving elder brother, the paramount chief."
Context: This section highlights the deep ideological and personality rift between Matenge and his brother, Chief Sekoto, juxtaposing rigid traditionalism against a more fluid, evolving approach to African leadership.

Page 39 (Section 2)
Transcription: "The village had dealt one shattering blow after another to his self-esteem. It was he who displayed the arrogance and pride that were part and parcel of the bearing of a great chief, and yet life had placed an amiable, pleasant nitwit of a brother in the supreme position, who was not above shaking hands with the commoners and talking to them as equals. It was he, Matenge, who really commanded the largest following of diehard traditionalists... It was he, Matenge, who understood tribalism, that it was essentially the rule of the illiterate man who, when he was in the majority, feared and despised anything that was not a part of the abysmal darkness in which he lived."
Context: This passage exposes Matenge’s deep-seated psychological motivations: intense professional jealousy toward his brother and a calculated reliance on reactionary traditionalist factions to retain localized tyranny.

Page 41
Transcription: "The opposition political parties had long been aligned to the Pan-African movement. They also called themselves the vanguard of African nationalism in southern Africa. To many, Pan-Africanism is an almost sacred dream, but like all dreams it also has its nightmare side, and the little men like Joas Tsepe and their strange doings are the nightmare. If they have any power at all it is the power to plunge the African continent into an era of chaos and bloody murder."
Context: The narrator critiques the superficial and dangerous elements of Pan-Africanism as embodied by opportunistic politicians, warning against movements that use grand ideological dreams to mask incompetence and potential tyranny.

Page 42 (Section 1)
Transcription: "Since he had come out of jail after the self-government elections, Joas lived as the permanent guest of Matenge. He had a co-operative to organize which would help Matenge to re-establish himself as the cattle-speculator of Golema Mmidi, and he had to educate the African masses in African socialism. It was on a Friday afternoon that Joas passed by the farm and noticed the presence of a stranger. Devoured by curiosity, he swung into the farm gates on the plea that he needed water for a long journey. He took one close look at Makhaya and almost choked with excitement. The newspaper with Makhaya's picture on the front page was in his car, and his car could not seem to drive fast enough back to Matenge."
Context: This section exposes the cynical partnership between the political opportunist Joas Tsepe and the traditional despot Matenge, co-opting political language to camouflage an exploitative monopoly over the rural cattle market.

Page 42 (Section 2)
Transcription: "Joas Tsepe, although born in Botswana, worked for several years in South Africa, where he accumulated numerous grievances. A mysterious source supplied him with funds, enabling him to remain unemployed and devote himself full-time to the liberation struggle. One wonders if his secret financier intended to re-establish the rule of the illiterate in Africa, or if Joas was merely a tool. Joas was a parrot and a belly-crawler; it was this exact sycophancy that won him Matenge's friendship."
Context: Critiques how personal opportunism and opaque external funding elevate incompetent, easily manipulated figures over genuine regional reformers.

Page 52
Transcription: "‘I don't know,’ George said. ‘People are on tenterhooks about Tsepe. Tsepe is under the illusion that he can establish a secret military camp in the bush. He has no idea that his every movement is known... If you like, we can delay matters until he brings your brother into the deal and we rope him in as well.’ Chief Sekoto nodded his head vigorously. ‘I've no objection to my brother going to jail, George,’ he said. ‘Only it must be for a long time. But what about the refugee? My brother wants him removed.’ ‘It's not what he wants,’ George said, calmly. ‘But what I want. What I want is for Gilbert to carry on with his work because everyone else is bullshitting around.’ Chief Sekoto laughed heartily... George looked affectionately at the old man, marvelling at his ability to take everything in life so lightly."
Context: This dialogue illustrates the pragmatic alliance between colonial police officer George Appleby-Smith and Chief Sekoto, neutralising localized political threats while protecting developmental work.

Page 57
Transcription: "Chief Matenge really believed he was 'royalty.' So deeply ingrained was this belief in him that he had acquired a number of personal possessions to bolster the image. One was a high-backed kingly chair and the other was a deep purple, tasselled and expensive dressing gown... The tide of African nationalism had swept down the continent and then faltered at the northern borders of Botswana. During the pre-election campaign, the politicians had had to chase after the people, who kept on moving back and forth to their cattle posts and lands, seemingly unaware that destiny was about to catch up with them."
Context: Head uses Matenge’s superficial execution of authority to parody regional elite structures while illustrating the disconnect between abstract political nationalism and migratory rural realities.

Page 58
Transcription: "The politicians could not perceive that conference table terms meant little to a people who could not read a newspaper and who were completely out of touch with the latest trends... The other political party—the sons and relatives of chiefs—was more cunning. It kept its distance. It played catchy little folk songs everyone knew. It talked about cattle and crops and all the familiar Botswana problems... The sons of chiefs, who had had all the advantages of education, pounced on the spelling errors of the sons of slaves, who had little or no education."
Context: An incisive structural critique of mid-century electoral mechanics during the transition to independence, targeting class-based elitism across factions.

Page 66
Transcription: "Mma-Millipede inquired about small details of Makhaya's life, chattering in a motherly way that felt like mountains of affection to the lonely man. Initially, her extreme generosity repelled him; to love people meant allowing them to completely invade your life, and he was unaccustomed to such invasions. Yet the isolation he so treasured had often been painful, for he still felt the universal human need to share life's best and worst elements with another."
Context: This internal realization explores Makhaya's defensive psychological architecture, where intimacy is initially paths as an aggressive invasion, yet isolation remains painful.

Page 88
Transcription: "The women had been lying to themselves for so long in their sexual frustration that they would not admit the real reason why Paulina dominated them all was because she was the kind of woman who could not lie to men. They followed the leadership of Paulina because she was so daring and different. It would have upset their world to have Paulina find a man she could get along with... Paulina turned and stirred one of the pots with a big wooden stick. It wasn't the women and their intrigues she feared but the untrustworthiness of men with no strength or moral values."
Context: This section maps social friction inside the village, framing Paulina Sebeso's moral independence as a threat to a status quo accustomed to domestic frustration.

Page 99
Transcription: "Ten other women walked briskly into the yard. Twenty more wished to join the tobacco-growing project but required their husbands' permission first. No men ever worked harder than Batswana women, upon whom rested the entire burden of providing food for large families. Their sticks thrashed the corn at harvest, and their winnowing baskets separated the chaff."
Context: This excerpt documents the harsh division of labor in rural Botswana, outlining how women act as the primary economic and agricultural engine of the village.

Page 119
Transcription: "Once he had pulled away from these taboos, he found the definition of a black man unacceptable to him. There were things like Baas and Master he would never call a white man, not even if they shot him dead. But all black men did it. He had seen it in the slums of all the cities of South Africa where black men had to live and how a man walked out of his home to buy a packet of cigarettes and never returned and how his seemingly senseless murder gave a brief feeling of manhood to a man who had none. Thousands of men died this way to boost up the manhood of a manless man."
Context: Makhaya dissects the psychological wreckage caused by apartheid, connecting mandatory daily humiliations directly to volatile, internalized violence within urban townships.

Page 128
Transcription: "It was hard to be charitable towards a civilization like this. It was hard to sit back and contemplate the real wonder of the white man's world which was this civilization. As Makhaya walked back to the farm in the pitch-dark night he was even sorry that he had once more aroused his own deep and bitter hatred. For he hated the white man in a strange way. It was not anything subtle or sly or mean, but a powerful accumulation of years and years and centuries and centuries of silence."
Context: Makhaya grapples with the historical trauma and systemic oppression inflicted by colonial civilization, exploring the profound, cumulative psychological toll of racial subjugation.

Page 129
Transcription: "There had been love and peace for some time on the continent of Africa because for all this time black men had been captivated by the doctrines of Christianity. It took them centuries to realize its contradictions... It seemed to Makhaya far preferable for Africa if it did without Christianity and Christian double-talk, fat priests, golden images... It meant that a white man could forever go on slaughtering black men simply because Jesus Christ would save him from his sins. Africa could do without a religion like that."
Context: A blunt philosophical challenge to colonial institutional frameworks, rejecting paradigms of easy absolution that insulated colonial powers from accountability.

Page 130
Transcription: "He viewed Gilbert's culture as one that systematically cataloged every single detail on earth with curiosity, revealing deep gaps in his own culture and proving how impossible it would be for Africans to stand alone. His own culture lacked, almost entirely, this love and care for the earth and had all its interest directed towards people. He had grown up in an atmosphere where the most important thing in the world was the stranger whose shadow darkened the doorstep. People were the central part of the universe of Africa, and the world stood still because of this. Over time, Makhaya began to combine the two—the good in Gilbert with the good in his own society."
Context: This section maps the contrast between Western empiricism (the cataloging of nature) and African humanism (the prioritization of human community and kinship).

Page 131
Transcription: "What else could a man do but seek a manageable life? What else could Makhaya do but wait here until his hatred subsided? As an individual, he sought a vibrant existence, terrified of the living death into which a man could be born. For his immediate peace, he determined to purge his hatred and concentrate fully on the daily details of life in Golema Mmidi—a life that was proving both rich and manageable."
Context: Underscores Makhaya's deliberate turn away from grand political theories and structural rage toward localism and everyday mindfulness as a path to healing.

Page 140
Transcription: "This desire for progress had usually taken the form of wanting to build a small brick house with a tin roof. But brick houses were for chiefs alone, and how could an ordinary commoner want to bring himself up to the level of a chief? Or again, he might desire to set up a borehole for watering his cattle. The chief could say yes or no. If in some demented mood he said yes and then the commoner prospered, it would not be for long... the chief acquired a new watering place for his cattle."
Context: This excerpt outlines the economic mechanics of tribal oligarchies, demonstrating how feudal land tenure systems and arbitrary chief vetoes actively suppress rural innovation.

Page 141
Transcription: "Matenge's crises were always silently prepared. No one ever knew what was going on in that lonely mountain-top which was his soul. The village was just presented with his thunderstorms, and their fierceness and savage intensity were the outcome of months of brooding. But he was ailing these days and it took him longer than usual to find his new victim... Yet, at this time, a far greater crisis than any Matenge could ever produce was to strike down on the village of Golema Mmidi and the country as a whole. It all began so quietly... September came around and no rain clouds gathered in the sky."
Context: The narrative transitions here from a micro-level conflict—Matenge's isolated, vindictive plotting—to the macro-level ecological catastrophe of a total failure of seasonal rains.

Page 151
Transcription: "He wanted Golema Mmidi to be co-operative in everything as that was the only way of defeating the land tenure system in the tribal reserves and the only way of defeating subsistence agriculture which was geared to keeping the poor man poor until eternity. Makhaya smiled back quietly and affectionately at his friend. He liked this kind of talk. He liked the idea that the whole of Golema Mmidi would be full of future millionaires. It blended in with his own dreams about Africa because he could not see it other than as a continent of future millionaires, which would compensate for all the centuries of browbeating, hatred, humiliation, and worldwide derision that had been directed to the person of the African man."
Context: This passage directly links agrarian reform with psychological decolonization, reinterpreting collective economics as a tool to restore ancestral dignity.

Page 154
Transcription: "The small brown birds had deserted the bush, and the bush itself no longer supplied the coverage and protection for the secret activities of the scarlet and golden birds. Here and there, faint patches of green clung to the topmost branches of tall thorn trees, but not a green thing survived near the sun-baked earth. In this desolation the vultures reigned supreme. They gathered on the ground in huge flocks of sixty to a hundred and held important discussions in hoarse, rough voices and flapped their long, sloppy brown feathers in imperious indignation. They could afford to be imperious, indignant and important, for they were to be a burial society for over six hundred thousand cattle."
Context: Head employs stark environmental imagery to capture the onset of systemic collapse, externalizing the psychological horror of the drought invading the region.

Page 157
Transcription: "He pushed open the door and looked in. There was only a heap of clean, white bones lying on the floor. They lay in a curled, cramped position with the bones of the hands curved inward... 'The boy is dead,' he said sharply. 'Why do you want to go in?' 'I must see the body,' she said... 'because it is our custom.' 'You see,' he said, in a deliberately harsh voice. 'All these rotten customs are killing us. Can't you see I'm here to bear all your burdens?'"
Context: The visceral emotional climax of the novel. Makhaya finds the skeletal remains of Paulina’s son and attacks the community’s rigid submission to fatalistic traditions over practical human preservation.

Page 158
Transcription: "‘...time? I'll remain behind.’ These few simple words put new life into Gilbert. He nodded briefly and turned the car round, and he and Paulina drove back in the direction of Golema Mmidi. Makhaya was left alone with the vultures. Surrounded by tragedy and seated in the shade of a ramshackle mud hut in the Botswana bush, he began to see himself. In retrospect he seemed a small-minded man. All his life he had wanted some kind of Utopia, and he had rejected in his mind and heart a world full of ailment and faults. He had run and run away from it all, but now the time had come when he could run and hide no longer and would have to turn round and face all that he had run away from. Loving one woman had brought him to this realization: that it was only people who could bring the real rewards of living, that it was only people who give love and happiness. As though to confirm his new trend of thought, he stirred a foot and found it brushed against a bundle of something, carefully tied up. He opened the bundle and in it was a collection of wood carvings, done by the small boy to occupy himself during the lonely hours of cattle herding."
Context: Left alone at the isolated cattle post, Makhaya realizes that his quest for an abstract, unblemished utopia was an act of emotional evasion, choosing instead to accept flawed human communities.

Page 160
Transcription: "He could not go on thinking of the heap of bones that lay inside the hut, because death was like trying to clutch the air, and you had to let it be and slowly let it pass aside, without fuss and indignity. Instead, you had to concentrate the mind on all that was still alive and treat it as the most precious treasure you had ever been given. Besides, he had felt all the pain he was capable of feeling the night before, and it had directed his actions along this new path. So, he sat there thinking about his new life with Paulina. Even ordinary things like cups, brooms, pots, and houses were a pleasure to him to contemplate, once he had become aware of their existence, as though all these things would anchor him firmly to the earth. They also strengthened his resolve to be a future millionaire, for many a future millionaire must have had a dead child in his life who had died from lack of proper food, and he must have had a one-room hut in which he could hardly move and breathe... If a man didn't have dreams like this, in Africa, he would end up food for the vultures too."

Page 164
Transcription: "‘No,’ she said curiously. ‘Even the trees were dying from the roots upward,’ he said. ‘Does everything die like this?’ ‘No,’ she said. ‘You may see no rivers on the ground but we keep the rivers inside us. That is why all good things and all good people are called rain. Sometimes we see the rain clouds gather even though not a cloud appears in the sky. It is all in our heart.’ He nodded his head, fully grasping this in its deepest meaning. There was always something on this earth man was forced to love and worship by reason of its absence. People in cloudy, misty climates worshipped the sun, and people in semi-desert countries worshipped the rain."

Page 175
Transcription: "This time there was a heavy feeling in his heart. It wasn't easy to dismiss the intense, dramatic face of his brother. As though it was a question mark before life. As though his brother had suffered because he had wanted more things than a man should desire for one life and then life itself had frustrated all these desires. As though his brother had been the helpless victim of terrible, private hungers... Chief Sekoto could picture so clearly the day Gilbert had walked into his office and Chief Sekoto had thought him mad with all his talk about the poor. The poor were just the poor, and the commoner was just the commoner, and they were not very interesting people to Chief Sekoto... How was Chief Sekoto to know that there was a quiet and desperate revolution going on throughout the whole wide world?"
Context: Following Matenge’s suicide, Chief Sekoto experiences a rare moment of genuine existential grief and self-reckoning, recognizing his profound detachment from his people.

Page 178
Transcription: "Until late that night they kept on grouping and regrouping in each other's yards, drinking bowls of sour-milk porridge, discussing the weather and how hot it had been that day. But not once did they mention the name of Matenge, though he was in all their thoughts, hovering like a great, unseen shadow over the whole village... Gilbert had been roughed up inside more than all of them. He had had to do a complete somersault of thought and feeling after his arrival in Golema Mmidi. No one had told him there was such a thing as an African oppressor, nor had he expected to find a Matenge exploiting his own people through the cattle-speculating business."

Page 180
Transcription: "There were two such destinies which faced Africa—that of the followers of Solomon and that of a man with no shoes. But the man with no shoes had been bypassed, scorned, and ridiculed while the Solomons stalked the land in their golden Chevrolets. Who would eat then if all the gold and pomegranates went into the house of Solomon? Who would bathe if all the water went into his forty bathrooms? Who would have time to plough if everyone had to join the parade to watch Solomon pass by in his Chevrolet of molten gold, his top hat and silk shirt, glittering in the African sun?"

Page 181 (Section 1)
Transcription: "But the God with no shoes, with his queer, inverted reasoning, had brought Makhaya, a real and potential murderer, face to face with the body of Matenge just hanging there and hanging there. ‘Don't you see?’ he had said softly. ‘Murder is small-minded business.’... Did you really trust a God like that? He made you take a long and perilous journey along a road where everyone threw things at you. Then he said you were small-minded if you wanted to throw things back. Why didn't he do something about the throwers then? Because one Matenge died and another replaced him, and no matter which way you turned there was always a Matenge there to throw something at you."
Context: The discovery of Matenge’s suicide cuts off Makhaya's path toward retributive murder, forcing an existential realignment away from destructive vengeance.

Page 181 (Section 2)
Transcription: "He changed about from day to day contradicting and confusing himself by all he had to learn, never certain of anything the way the fortune-tellers were. He had upset Makhaya this day by stacking the cards one way and then toppling them another. He had packed all these cards up in a precarious pyramid and stood by while Matenge picked off the topmost card. It would have been different had Matenge really victimized Paulina for whatever he wanted to victimize her for. Maybe her association with Makhaya. But then a man like Makhaya would not have stood by with tied hands. He would have had blood on his hands by now and been in some cell, with George Appleby-Smith lecturing him on how he had let him down."

Friday, September 27, 2019

Kruse's Keys: Read "Gratitude in Low Voices" to Experience a Refugee's Journey (Eritrea)

Equal parts memoir, history and adventure novel, Dawit Habte’s “Gratitude in Low Voices” is the story of not only his country’s 91 year struggle for independence but also his own incredible journey from a countryside village in Eritrea to the offices of Bloomberg as a software engineer. As with many refugee stories that have come out of Africa, the western reader will be floored by the tenacity, resilience and grit that the author displays at such a young age as he smuggles himself out of Ethiopia, and finally gets refugee status to start his life over continue his life in the United States. One thing that struck me was Habte’s commentary on the dehumanizing nature of seeking asylum--where you are assumed to be starting anew on a better life despite having a family, people, and country that you call home half a world away.

In my own quest to read a novel from every country in Africa this checks the Eritrea box even though it isn’t a work of fiction. I’ve counted it though because it reads like fiction and because Habte’s is such an important voice in offering a counter-narrative to the often louder Ethiopian one with regard to the past violent conflict between the two nations. (To understand any conflict it’s important to research and listen to the competing narratives, particularly on the personal level since wars and struggles are all too often white-washed in sterile casualty figures--”Gratitude” puts a face to those numbers).

Habte does a good job making the complicated history of Eritrea readable and easy to digest. He notes early on that his country is the only one that had to fight for its independence from both European colonizers and an African one (i.e., Ethiopia). Having recently read a very comprehensive history of the Italian struggle against Italy (see my review of Prevail here), it was useful to see how the Eritreans viewed it since Eritreans felt largely sold out by the partners in the south.

The recent denouement between Ethiopia and Eritrea is a testament to Abiy’s political capabilities but this book highlights how large the obstacles are that remain.

*One of my Reading Around the Continent books--the full list is here.
**See our 2019, 2018, 2017, 2016, 2015 and 2014 Reading Lists.


Other recommended books by the author (you can follow him on twitter here):


My Brief Notes on Biopolitics, Militarism and Development in Eritrea
DLI Background on Eritrea

Key Quotes:
  • 33 “Most mothers are instinctive philosophers” -Harriet Beecher Stowe
  • 58 “Dry the sea to kill the fish” unofficial motto of Ethiopia as they sought to destroy any hope of Eritrean independence.
  • 82 “I also do not think there is anything so finely perceived and so finely felt by children as a gesture of goodwill.”
  • 144 “A refugee is always a pawn to be used.”
  • 238 “Nostalgia is the suffering caused by an unappeased yearning to return.”
Key Takeaways:
  • 7    naming convention--you get your own first name but the rest of your names are those of your father and his father and this father etc.
  • 14 background history--post WWII, Eritrea placed under British military administration. Then in 1950, UN federated Eritrea with Ethiopia. 12 years later, Ethiopia dissolved the federation and annexed Eritrea as a province.
  • 16 history of Christianity: Christianity introduced to the area by Syrian Monk named Freminatos during the early 4th century. Later came the 9 saints who preached the gospel for many years making it the dominant religion. (more history on page 2 of this document: https://www.africanidea.org/Ethiopian_Orthodox_Tewahedo.pdf
  • 32 apprenticeship a long-standing tradition for children transition from village to city life.
  • 54 Battle of Dogali, great Ethiopian general Ras Alula beats Italy. Good history/biography of him here: https://www.africanidea.org/Abanega.pdf They also wrote a poem of praise regarding his victory:
    • “Although the Italian sat foot at Sehati, Alula roasted him by his metal oven (metaphoric); Italians, You better listen to our advise! You may dig trenches but that may very well be your graveyard. This country Ethiopia, the land of Bezbiz [Emperor Yohannes], is just like a tiger defending its children without compromise whatsoever.”
  • 55 1890 Borders drawn between Italy, Britain, France and Abyssinian king Menelik II. These are the borders, more or less, as we know them today.
  • 55 Nakura island--was the Eritrean alcatraz where community leaders were jailed.
  • 56 “Breaker of Nakura” was Ali Mohammed Osman Buri who led the escape and overthrow of the island jail.
  • 57 Menlik’s folly was when he accepted Italy recognizing his rule in Ethiopia in return for his recognizing Eritrea as an Italian colony. This would come back to bite Italy obviously
  • 58 unique Eritrean experience as they were the only country denied independence after Europe left its colonies
  • 131 dehumanizing to seek asylum
  • 145 Ethiopian atrocities in 70’s under the Derg were numerous
  • 148 made in USA bombs used in February 1990 Ethiopian bombing of Massawa with napalm. Here’s a good reference on that. https://www.hrw.org/reports/1990/WR90/AFRICA.BOU-02.htm
  • 168 1991 Eritrean independence
  • 170 91 year struggle for independence since they broke out of Nakura prison.
  • 238 Nostalgia
Key References (For further study):

Saturday, September 7, 2019

Kruse's Keys: Read "Small Country" to See Ethnic Violence Destroy Childhood (Burundi)

One of the best books that I read this year.

I sped through it in three heady days, finishing the last third of the book in a marathon nighttime session tucked in bed next to my sleeping wife.

I couldn’t put the book down.

Reading Gael Faye’s “Small Country”, I was reminded of the writing of other writers such as Teju Cole, Dinaw Mengestu, Maaza Mengiste, Noviolet Bulawayo, and poets like Frank Chipasula, Atukwei Okai, and K'naan. Faye writes with a musician’s flair (and indeed he was a well known rapper/musician before becoming an author), penning lines like: “And when he laughed, happiness washed over the walls of Mamie’s small living room like a fresh lick of paint.”

“Small Country” is one of the first novels (i.e., fiction) about the Rwandan genocide and was translated into English in 2018 after winning the 2016 Prix Goncourt des Lycéens. In my effort to read a novel from every country in Africa I’ve categorized it under Burundi, however, because that is where the main characters live and the location through which the themes of exile and displacement are examined.

At the end of the book, Gabriel reflects that “I used to think I was exiled from my country. But, in retracing the steps of my past, I have understood that I was exiled from my childhood. Which seems so much crueler.” This summarizes well the crux of the story, Gabriel is Rwandan-French but spends his entire childhood in neighboring Burundi until the effects of the 1994 Rwanda genocide push him even further away to France. It’s there that he considers what exactly he’s lost and finally finds the courage to return and makes a heart-breaking discovery.

Serendipitously, in writing this review of “Small Country”, I discovered the music of the author and its terrific. In fact, he even made a companion video of sorts to the novel which you can see below. Also, they are finishing up a movie version of the book!

*One of my Reading Around the Continent books--the full list is here.
**See our 2019, 2018, 2017, 2016, 2015 and 2014 Reading Lists.





Key Takeaways:

On Genocide, War, and the Death of Childhood:
But for the time being, our country was like a barefoot zombie walking over sharp stones, its parched tongue hanging out. We had grown used to the idea of dying at any moment. Death was no longer something distant and abstract. It was the banal face of our everyday existence. Living with this kind of clarity laid waste to what was left of our childhood...I used to think I was exiled from my country. But, in retracing the steps of my past, I have understood that I was exiled from my childhood. Which seems so much crueler.

On Memory and Poetry: Poetry may not be news. But it is all that human beings retain from their journey on this earth.

On Nationalism: Not one of them fails to ask me the same nagging question, and it’s always on our first date: “So, where are you from?” A question as mundane as it is predictable. It feels like an obligatory rite of passage, before the relationship can develop any further. My skin—the color of caramel—must explain itself by offering up its pedigree. “I’m a human being.” My answer rankles with them. It’s not that I’m trying to be provocative. Any more than I want to appear pedantic or philosophical. But when I was just knee-high to a locust, I had already made up my mind never to define myself again.

On the inevitability of violence:
We were living on the axis of the Great Rift, at the precise spot where Africa fractures. The people of this region mirrored the land. Beneath the calm appearance, behind the facade of smiles and optimistic speeches, dark underground forces were continuously at work, fomenting violence and destruction that returned for successive periods, like bad winds: 1965, 1972, 1988. A glowering, uninvited ghost showing up at regular intervals to remind us that peace is merely a brief interlude between two wars. This poisonous lava, the thick flow of blood, was ready to rise to the surface once more.

On Classical Music and Coups:
Later on, I discovered that it was traditional to play classical music during a military coup. On November 28, 1966, for Michel Micombero’s coup, it was Schubert’s piano sonata No. 21; on November 9, 1976, for Jean-Baptiste Bagaza’s coup, it was Beethoven’s 7th symphony; and on September 3, 1987, for Pierre Buyoya’s coup, it was Chopin’s Bolero in C major. On this day, October 21, 1993, we were treated to Wagner’s Twilight of the Gods.

On the Impossibility of Neutrality: I couldn’t explain this cruel shift, this tangible sense of confusion. That is, until break-time one day, when two Burundian boys started fighting behind the main playground, hidden from the view of teachers and supervisors. The other Burundian students, wading into the hot waters of the dispute, promptly divided into two groups, each supporting one of the boys. “Filthy Hutus!” shouted one side. “Filthy Tutsis!” replied the other. That afternoon, for the first time in my life, I entered the dark reality of this country. I was a direct witness to Hutu–Tutsi antagonism, the line that could not be crossed, forcing everyone to belong to one camp or the other. This camp was something you were born with, like a child’s given name, something that followed you forever. Hutu or Tutsi. It had to be one or the other. Heads or tails. From that day on, I was like a blind person who had regained their sight, as I began to decipher people’s body language and glances, words left unspoken and ways of behaving that had previously passed me by. War always takes it upon itself, unsolicited, to find us an enemy. I wanted to remain neutral, but I couldn’t. I was born with this story. It ran in my blood. I belonged to it.

On Colonial Empathy:
“Africa, what a waste!” cursed Jacques, pouring himself another stiff glass of whiskey.

On Perseverance: “Tomorrow, the sun will rise and we shall try again,”

On the Music of War: While we were arguing, far off, up in the hills, we could hear the AMX-10 tanks firing. Over time, I had learned to recognize their notes in the musical stave of war that surrounded us. There were evenings when the noise of weapons blended into the birdsong or the call of the muezzin, and I found such beauty in this peculiar soundscape that I forgot myself entirely.

On War: Perhaps this was what war meant: understanding nothing.

On Identity: If you come from a country, if you are born there, as what might be called a native by birthright, well then, that country is in your eyes, your skin, your hands, together with the thick hair of its trees, the flesh of its soil, the bones of its stones, the blood of its rivers, its sky, its flavor, its men and women…

Key References (for further study):

LitHub Interview with Gael Faye
French article on the movie version coming out




Key Quotes:

“So…why are they at war?” “Because they don’t have the same nose.”

Location: 90

I am haunted by the idea of returning. Not a day goes by without the country calling to me.

Location: 94

Except that I no longer live anywhere. Living somewhere involves a physical merging with its landscape, with every crevice of its environment. There’s none of that here. I’m passing through. I rent. I crash. I squat. My town is a dormitory that serves its purpose. My apartment smells of fresh paint and new linoleum. My neighbors are perfect strangers, we avoid each other politely in the stairwell.

Location: 101

Not one of them fails to ask me the same nagging question, and it’s always on our first date: “So, where are you from?” A question as mundane as it is predictable. It feels like an obligatory rite of passage, before the relationship can develop any further. My skin—the color of caramel—must explain itself by offering up its pedigree. “I’m a human being.” My answer rankles with them. It’s not that I’m trying to be provocative. Any more than I want to appear pedantic or philosophical. But when I was just knee-high to a locust, I had already made up my mind never to define myself again.

Location: 131

Poetry may not be news. But it is all that human beings retain from their journey on this earth.

Location: 140

But Maman was head and shoulders above him—even her ankles were legendary!

Location: 158

In those happy times, if anyone asked me, “Life’s good?” I would always answer: “Life’s good!” Wham-bam. When you’re happy, you don’t think twice about it. It was only afterward that I began to consider the question.

Location: 168

Burundian restraint gave way to Zairean commotion.

Location: 185

we arrived in Bukavu—a sort of Garden of Eden on the banks of Lake Kivu and an art deco relic of a town that had once been Futurist.

Location: 220

“The last time I was in Belgium, the docs told me to give up the smokes or I was done for. There’s nothing I haven’t been through here: wars, looting, shortages, Bob Denard and Kolwezi, thirty years of bloody ‘Zairinization,’ and it’s the cigarettes that’ll get me in the end! Goddamn

Location: 238

At least with the Zaireans, they’re easy to understand: you just pay the bribe.

Location: 301

started singing “Sambolera.” Maman joined in. There was a beautiful quality to her voice, one that touched your soul, triggering as many goosebumps as the air-con. It made you want to pause the cassette and only listen to her.

Location: 629

And when he laughed, happiness washed over the walls of Mamie’s small living room like a fresh lick of paint.

Location: 702

And yet they were both talking about the same thing. Returning to their country. One belonged to history, the other was tasked with making history happen.

Location: 1,141

A warm downpour was about to come crashing down on us, so violently that we would run to collect the tables, chairs and plates before sheltering under the safety of our barza to watch the party dissolving in a cloudburst. Soon my birthday would be over, but I chose to savor that minute before the rain came down in earnest, that taste of suspended happiness as music joined our hearts and filled the space between us, celebrating life, this moment in time, the eternity of my eleven years, here, beneath the cathedral that was the rubber fig tree of my childhood, and deep down I knew that everything would turn out all right.

Location: 1,188

We were living on the axis of the Great Rift, at the precise spot where Africa fractures. The people of this region mirrored the land. Beneath the calm appearance, behind the facade of smiles and optimistic speeches, dark underground forces were continuously at work, fomenting violence and destruction that returned for successive periods, like bad winds: 1965, 1972, 1988. A glowering, uninvited ghost showing up at regular intervals to remind us that peace is merely a brief interlude between two wars. This poisonous lava, the thick flow of blood, was ready to rise to the surface once more. We didn’t know it yet, but the hour of the inferno had come, and the night was about to unleash its cackle of hyenas and wild dogs.

Location: 1,217

Later on, I discovered that it was traditional to play classical music during a military coup. On November 28, 1966, for Michel Micombero’s coup, it was Schubert’s piano sonata No. 21; on November 9, 1976, for Jean-Baptiste Bagaza’s coup, it was Beethoven’s 7th symphony; and on September 3, 1987, for Pierre Buyoya’s coup, it was Chopin’s Bolero in C major. On this day, October 21, 1993, we were treated to Wagner’s Twilight of the Gods.

Location: 1,240

They’re too much, those colonial settlers! Their pets’ lives matter more to them than human ones. Anyway, I’d better get going, Gaby. More news in the next update.”

Location: 1,261

For privileged children like us, who lived in the city center and in residential neighborhoods, war was just a word.

Location: 1,373

I couldn’t explain this cruel shift, this tangible sense of confusion. That is, until break-time one day, when two Burundian boys started fighting behind the main playground, hidden from the view of teachers and supervisors. The other Burundian students, wading into the hot waters of the dispute, promptly divided into two groups, each supporting one of the boys. “Filthy Hutus!” shouted one side. “Filthy Tutsis!” replied the other. That afternoon, for the first time in my life, I entered the dark reality of this country. I was a direct witness to Hutu–Tutsi antagonism, the line that could not be crossed, forcing everyone to belong to one camp or the other. This camp was something you were born with, like a child’s given name, something that followed you forever. Hutu or Tutsi. It had to be one or the other. Heads or tails. From that day on, I was like a blind person who had regained their sight, as I began to decipher people’s body language and glances, words left unspoken and ways of behaving that had previously passed me by. War always takes it upon itself, unsolicited, to find us an enemy. I wanted to remain neutral, but I couldn’t. I was born with this story. It ran in my blood. I belonged to it.

Location: 1,477

Christian gave me a mischievous look as he raised his eyebrows and shimmied his shoulders like an Ethiopian dancer.

Location: 1,628

For the second time in my life, I had overcome my miserable fear. One day I would leave behind that crippling burden.

Location: 1,704

From April to July 1994, at a distance and between four walls, next to a telephone and a radio, we lived through the genocide that was being perpetrated in Rwanda.

Location: 1,752

“Yeah, I’m from Zaire, but I’m a Zairean Tutsi.” “Get that, you learn something new every day!” “They call us the Banyamulenge.”

Location: 1,816

and, for some time now, men had been able to kill other men with absolute impunity, under the same midday sun as before.

Location: 1,864

“Africa, what a waste!” cursed Jacques, pouring himself another stiff glass of whiskey.

Location: 1,885

God makes us undergo these ordeals so we can prove to him that we don’t doubt him. It’s as if he’s telling us that great love relies on trust.

Location: 1,888

“Tomorrow, the sun will rise and we shall try again,”

Location: 1,924

While we were arguing, far off, up in the hills, we could hear the AMX-10 tanks firing. Over time, I had learned to recognize their notes in the musical stave of war that surrounded us. There were evenings when the noise of weapons blended into the birdsong or the call of the muezzin, and I found such beauty in this peculiar soundscape that I forgot myself entirely.

Location: 2,014

It’s taken me a long time to write to you. I’ve been very busy recently, trying to stay a child.

Location: 2,048

“Gaby,” she asked eventually, looking up at me, “why did Maman accuse us of having killed our family in Rwanda?” I had no answer to give my little sister. I had no explanation for the deaths of some and the hatred of others. Perhaps this was what war meant: understanding nothing.

Location: 2,052

But for the time being, our country was like a barefoot zombie walking over sharp stones, its parched tongue hanging out. We had grown used to the idea of dying at any moment. Death was no longer something distant and abstract. It was the banal face of our everyday existence. Living with this kind of clarity laid waste to what was left of our childhood.

Location: 2,203

Even after closing the heavy gates, I could hear her voice behind me, still lavishing me with never-ending wisdom: take care in the cold, look after your secrets, may you be rich in all that you read, in your encounters, in your loves, and never forget where you come from… When we leave somewhere, we take the time to say goodbye: to the people, the things, and the places that we’ve loved. I didn’t leave my country, I fled it. The door was wide open behind me as I walked away, without turning back. All I can remember is Papa’s small hand waving from the balcony of the airport at Bujumbura.

Location: 2,221

If you come from a country, if you are born there, as what might be called a native by birthright, well then, that country is in your eyes, your skin, your hands, together with the thick hair of its trees, the flesh of its soil, the bones of its stones, the blood of its rivers, its sky, its flavor, its men and women…

Location: 2,227

I used to think I was exiled from my country. But, in retracing the steps of my past, I have understood that I was exiled from my childhood. Which seems so much crueler.